Now this was something that I never really wanted!! I didn’t really ever see myself as a mum, maybe it was because I was made to grow up way too fast and raise my younger sisters!! Or maybe not. ⠀
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When i was old enough to leave home I did. I partied hard, I was selfish as hell and nothing else mattered but ME. ⠀
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The thought of having my own little people to look out for scared the shit out of me. I didn’t want to have that responsibility. I could do anything I wanted whenever I wanted. I could eat, party, hitch hike, not go home, sleep where I wanted, stay up all night, sleep all day. Shit I didn’t have a care in the world, as if I wanted to give that up for kids 🤦🏽‍♀️⠀
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I loved my ‘before kids’ life. I loved living recklessly, by the seed of my pants, not knowing what tomorrow will bring or where I will end up. Man that was so fun!!⠀
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But then I fell pregnant, I was scared that I couldn’t give up my exciting fabulous life. That I wouldn’t be any good at being a mum. I had not had to be responsible my entire life & now I’ve got this little human growing inside of me and I’m going to have to be responsible for it. Holy shit balls!! ⠀
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Then I realised when my baby girl came into this world that that is exactly what I had been waiting for, I just didn’t know it. My heart exploded 3 times over. I was born for this mum gig!! I fucking kill it on a daily. ⠀
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I ain’t a perfect mum by far, shit I just stumble and fall my way around this mum job. It is the most rewarding job I have ever had & it fills my soul with so much joy. ⠀
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They are my WHY, why I get up every day, why I try to better myself every damn day, why I have grey hairs, why I live the life I live, why my life is so fulfilled, why I love the way I love, why I am the way I am. I am who I am today because of my babies and all they have taught me over the years. I am forever in debt to them for the way that they changed my life and enriched my soul ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I love you little fools NO END 💗⠀